Heavy Heart...

Another school year has started...
I am not one of those moms who can’t wait for school to start, never have been, never will be.
I love my kids, I love having them home, with me. Summer always goes by so fast. Even Brielle said this past weekend she wishes the winter went by as fast as the summer.
It’s always been a struggle for me, even before I had kids! I guess I need a different outlook.
We have kids and try our best to raise them and mold them into respectful, kind human beings.
They still seem so small to me when we have to, in a sense, turn them over to others to watch, care for and teach them.
It feels like they are with them, more than they are with me.
Once kids start school they change so much, right before my eyes. Some good changes, others not.
Brielle is my most laid back, go with the flow child. This year she was a bundle of nerves and apprehension. She came out of her room crying the night before school started. It broke my heart.
As we got ready for the first day of school, she was doing better at home. Once we arrived however, she became quiet and meek.
How do we find the balance between loving and somewhat sheltering our kids, yet raise them to be strong, independent people? Perhaps she needs a confidence booster, I’m really not sure.
She mentioned over the weekend that she wished there was a field trip on the first day of school, as that would make it a lot more fun.
Some great logic comes from that little girl. She teaches me new things all the time.
Like kids on the first day of school, we all have things that make us apprehensive and nervous. Maybe we should keep that in mind when we deal with other people in our lives.
You never know what struggle people are dealing with. Keep that in mind as you come across others throughout the day.
Smile at strangers, be kind and friendly. Take the time to check in on those you love. Let them know how much they mean to you.
This past weekend we had friends get married. It was a lake ceremony and I was the photographer. It was beautiful!
I don’t normally photograph weddings, as they are out of my comfort zone. It’s a high pressure job, one that can’t be re-done.
The couple and wedding party were amazing. As I joined the party for pictures before the wedding, I was greeted with a hug.
These two are truly an inspiration and I am so blessed to have them be a part of my life.
I wish there were more people like that in the world. Congrats and best wishes on many happy years together!
As for me... my heavy heart will lighten with time. I hope my kids come home from school, full of excitement for the year ahead.
This will be a rough year for us. I am more than ready to start school myself. I can’t wait to submerse myself and test myself on a whole new level. I will be thrown completely out of my comfort zone.
Perhaps that’s what I need. A new start, testing myself. Helping me grow, making me a better mom.
In the meantime, I will leave you with this...

“Be unique, be kind hearted, be extraordinary, be happy, be humble, be free, be the person you were meant to be.”
-unknown