I had been stuck in a meltdown--let-down the last few days. Being touched so much in school was bringing up emotions and toxins in general and I just felt like crap.
I knew I wanted to do something today, and I have a couple of things planned. However when I woke up this morning, I was not feeling like doing either of the things I had planned. I was tired, and just not in the mood. Which turned out for the better anyway as the plans got canceled.
I got out of bed and had a video chat with my kids. After that I decided I needed to get out of the house and do something for me.
I have been wanting to take in the aspen as they have just begun changing colors. I wanted to get outside but did not want to drive hours to do so. I did some searching online and discovered Golden Gate Canyon State Park was only 30 minutes from my house... Perfect!
GPS was having trouble finding my ending destination, but I was suddenly determined to go. I found my way to the park and visitor center and then just followed people who looked like they knew what they were doing. I went inside got a park pass for the day and was all set.
There were numerous hiking trails to choose from. At this point in the day it was obvious God had a hand in what was going on. I occasionally just go with my gut and make no plans. These seem to be the times I find the most beauty in the world.
I was driving down the road when I drove by a parking lot, I decided that was the trail I wanted to hike, however the parking lot was full. I continued down the road a few feet and found a parking spot and walked back to the trail I wanted to hike.
I had no idea what kind of trail this would be, as in where it would lead, how long it was, how hard it was, but I continued on. As I was winding my way up the mountain I discovered this trail was lined with aspen. It was so pretty. I said hello to strangers and even stopped to take a picture for a group of hikers.
Let me tell you, I am out of shape. I was breathing hard not long into the hike. I continued on, being aware of the fact that as far as I went up, I would also have to go back down. It was a pretty hike, I really didn't know what exactly I wanted out of the day. I have been feeling drained and empty lately. Like I'm just going through the motions. As I continued on this hike I was starting to feel better, I wasn't as tired, nor as sad.
I had been hiking close to an hour when I came across a small meadow of aspen trees, they had just begun to change and were very pretty, but I did not quit feel satisfied. I kept going and before I knew it I came around a bend... I stumbled upon where all the rainbows end. That's the best way I can describe it. So many large aspen, and they were the brightest gold I have ever seen. It was like looking at a pot of gold. This was it, this was what I was looking for. I soaked in the fresh mountain air and the golden beauty that surrounded me.
I came back down the trail feeling full again. I got these few hours today to really be by myself and just hike and think. I am so blessed to be able to start over again, to find myself and to be selfish for a while.
My cup runneth over. Somedays you just need to stop look around and soak in the small things. Find the place where the rainbows end. Don't let yourself become empty.
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