Merry Christmas Eve...

I know I said I would give updates on The Work In Progress, however, between actual work and the kids and life in general things seemed to hit a sort of stand still. There are many days I feel like I just go, go, go only stop long enough to sleep for a few hours and start again.
I haven't had a lot of "Christmas Cheer" the last couple of years. Doesn't help that I have twice moved right before Christmas, barely get a tree up and can't find anything I need. The holidays are stressful, go here, do this, buy this, with what money? You feel all the loss you have suffered much more during these times.
Bear with me as per my usual self I am a little all over the place...
I hate the saying, "Everything Happens for a Reason." Those awful words have been spoken from my very mouth far too many times. That makes it easy to lead to the question, "Where was God?" Shit happens, period. It is up to us to decide what will do with what we have been dealt. God was there with you, crying and counting your tears.
Where is this coming from? It's been a rough year and I think a lot of people are questioning a lot of things. I do, its human nature. But I do try to grow from my experiences.
Being a Massage Therapist you come across many different types of people. You know that everyone is dealing with something. I am good at listening, that's what I do, listen. I do not give much advise, sometimes what you need most is to be able to just speak and have someone listen.
When giving a massage you sometimes have people that want to talk, other times people are completely silent. Some need to talk, some you can tell maybe want to but they really need to just relax and let go of whatever is bogging them down.
When I am finished with a massage I meet my clients at the front counter with a glass of water. My question is always, "How do you feel?" Most answer right away and you can somewhat tell by how they look when they come out to the front. I most often can tell if people are relaxing and getting what they need by how they respond during the massage. There are a few times here and there that I just can't tune in.
The other day I gave a massage and the person seemed to be relaxing and enjoying it. As is my usual routine I met them out front and asked how they felt. The client was wiping their eyes with a tissue, and the response was not immediate. For the first time I was truly worried I did something wrong, did they hate it? The client slowly turned around and answered with a big sigh, "Like a million bucks." I was able to breathe again. Sometimes the relaxation and attention bring on emotions, I do my best to help. I listen, I work on those tired sore muscles and I give you space.
That seems to be how I am in life, or am growing to be. I don't like ultimatums, they are horrible. I will not ask you to choose between me or someone else. I will not tell you if someone is in your life I don't feel is beneficial to you that you have to get rid of them or me. Instead I slowly and quietly remove myself from the situation. I give you the space you need to figure things out. That being said I will also at times tell you that if that is what you want that is fine, but I will not be in that place at that time. Life is overwhelming, busy, everyone is dealing with something. Even when I back away and remove myself, I still care. I just want you to do whats best for you. I will always be here, ready to listen when thats what you need.
My Christmas wish for everyone is calming relaxation. My prayer for myself every day is that I will be what someone needs to heal. You know my new favorite saying is, "You will always have what you need around you to heal." Just be patient and know it is true. When we are what someone else needs to heal, we in turn get some healing ourselves.
Merry Christmas